A shitty thing to say.

    So as most of my readers know I am going to Culinary art school in California. well this whole process of applying and getting loans and everything else has been allot of work and a bit a of struggle and has brought on some arguments with my mother.

Going to Culinary art school is sooooo important to me and to go to one of the best culinary art schools in the country makes it even more important and even better. I have never really been all that great in school not for lack of intelligence but because things didn't catch my interest to quickly and when they did I did great. My first year of regular college wasn't all that fabulous and this I know is going to be different because I feel differently about this i am actually excited and eager to go.

On the phone this evening with my mother discussing my living arrangements,the application I have to put in for the apartment I will be living in over there and the fee for my application she decides to tell me that me going to school over there is a big inconvenience for the family and that I didn't consider anyone else in my decision to go.  First off that was a big blow to my enthusiasm and motivation. Second of all its not like my mother is paying for a damn thing!! I am paying for my schooling  and my housing all on my own. Third of all yes my father and my aunt have put out money but to my mother because she decided to accompany me to California because she feels like I need a fucking babysitter to come with me on my trip there!! I never asked her to come with me in the first place I actually would prefer that she did not come with me! If she wouldn't have insisted on coming with me neither my aunt nor my father would have to put out money . The money is for her not me. lastly its not like we own a fucking farm that is our only lively hood and I have to stay to help because there is no one else , my mother is not fucking bed ridden either so I am not tied down and have no obligated to stay here close to home for school.

O and did I mention how my mother wants to go and get legally married to her partner on her trip to California with me!!!! And guess who she wants the fucking witness to be!!!! You guessed it ,ME! even after lying to me about her commitment ceremony the first time she wants me to fucking be there for her. ( That's another story in it self)

Needless to say I am pretty pissed off and upset that my mother is being like this , it actually kind of hurts.