How to deal??

  How do you deal when life gives you lemons. Some would make lemonaid but others would just sit there thinking what the fuck am I sapose to do with some god damn lemons. Here is a little story from my life. I fell hard for a guy , unexpectedly. We have been going together for almost 6 months , and we had our little ups and downs but overall its been great. His mom aproves of me and his friends like me (at least I think they do , they are always nice to me when I am around and we have fun ) . I think it is safe to say that we both have made positive contributuins to eachother lifes. Here is the thing he is a free 21 year old who is going to art school in california in july (Which is a whole other can of worms)  and I am 19 year old college student with a part time job and a dictator for a mother who only lets me see him once a week. This arrangement is getting to him and because its getting to him its getting to me too. The truth is if I cant fix this our relationship isnt going to last much longer. Its not like I havnt tried to fix it before. So there is my lemon , how the fuck am I sapose to make lemonaid.!! Why should I make lemonaid , who the hell does he think he is disrupting my life and bringing me lemons!!! God!! ..........

         The truth is I am happy he disrupted my life , this is the happiest I have been in a long time and I cant imagine going back to the way things were before he entered my life. I guess I need to make things work and happen and find that damn juicer.

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